A while ago I was on my second regression. I was a bit intimidated in front, because I had such a good regression last time. My therapist said it was normal to feel that way – but still I felt uncomfortable lying there. She had to work hard to get me relaxed enough to start the regression. This time – more than the first time - I felt I was making stuff up. I was twisting my mind to find out if the pictures or feelings I got into my mind – came from something I’ve read or seen on TV or anything else. My mind was really working hard to find other solutions of this.
After a while I felt very dizzy. My body felt like spinning around and around. Like beeing drunk or maybe I was in a boat. I got a terrible pain in my head – and my back was hurting as well. I started to feel sick and tried not to throw up.
The therapist counted me back in time and the pain went away.
However I was still a little bit dizzy. I got a feeling of beeing a man, since I had very hairy arms and legs – and was kind of - “dirty”. The clothes I was wearing were made of fur and leather. It was all just some kind of feeling – couldn’t actually see it.
It then felt like I was in a room with many men – older than me – more scary and brutal. I was a bit afraid – but felt this was something I had to do. We were drinking something that tasted bad – a lot of it. No wonder I felt so dizzy. Beeing accepted by this men made me feel proud in a weird way. This was not good men – they were some kind of warriors, not vikings but something else. I didn’t like what they were doing – but had nothing to say about it.
The therapist then counted me forward in time again.
Now I was actually in a boat or ship, feeling drunk and a bit sick. I was alone. The other men had left me and went ashore. I was told to stay there until they returned. There was a storm building up outside and the water was very turbulent. It was a large wooden boat and I was sitting under deck. I got the image of flashing lights that I think must have come from the swinging lamp hanging under deck or maybe it was from the storm outside. I felt more and more nervous. I started drinking more heavily. I then realized I had to pee. I was climbing a ladder to go up on the deck – but I slipped because of the big waves throwing the boat from side to side. I fell and hit my head on something hard. It was really painful and it started to sting – as if it was bleeding a lot. Then my back started to ache. I must have hit my back in the fall in addition to my head. I was hurting and bleeding. I felt sick and dizzy.
Then the therapist counted me forward.
I was still alone, lying on my back. Still the waves were beating the boat around. I was feeling numb. I was angry – very angry. With myself. I could have avoided this situation. If I only had stood up for myself. If I hadn’t been drinking so much – if I hadn’t gone on this trip. A lot of self-destructing behaviour had lead up to this situation. Wanting to be so hard and tough – beeing one of this bad boys travelling around. Maybe I could have stopped it -just maybe ..
I was looking at the inside of the boat until I closed my eyes and let go.
The therapist told me to go to my healingplace on the other side. She was asking for healing for my soul. Asking for me to meet up with this other men I was travelling with, and then tell me to talk to them. Say what I should have said. Tell them how I felt. Get my anger and frustration out to those who partially put me in that situation. It felt better afterwards.
She then counted me back to the present.
I’m a bit confused about what all this meant. But I felt how easy it was to just go with the flow. And how terrible it might end – in just a second’s mistake or unattention.
If this really was a past life – or if I’m just a “storyteller” – remains to be seen – in the afterlife.
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2 kommentarer:
Spennende lesning! Syns dette er veldig interessant, du vet vel ikke tilfeldigvis om noen som driver i Stavanger-området?
Nei dessverre - jeg fant hun jeg går til via nettsøk. Du kan også sjekke med alternativt nettverk.
Det bruker å være alternativmesser også i Stavanger (var faktisk på en der i 2000) - kanskje du kan besøke en slik og se om du finner noen med informasjon der. Kanskje til og med noen som driver med dette :o)
Oslo/Lillestrøm skal ha stor messe den 6-8. november - hvis du har mulighet til å reise dit.
Ønsker deg lykke til - for spennende er det i alle fall. Noe kan man lære av det uansett - det er tross alt ting som underbevisstheten vår enten husker eller "koker sammen" - det vil si at det er viktig for oss.
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