Merry Christmas

.. well – I’ll guess it will be Christmas after all .. :o)

These last days went rather slowly. Didn’t seem to get anything done. But it will be Christmas no matter what :o) I think that I have remembered everybody I should remember – but still I have some kind of nagging feeling in the back of my head. I really  hope it’s just my imagination. Most of my house is done – some small tasks before Grandma comes visiting, is left. But with my youngest getting up at five/six in the morning – I think I’ll  manage to get that stuff done before breakfast .. :o)

So – all that’s left to do – is to wish you all a Merry Christmas. I will be visiting your blogs as soon as the Christmas is settled – and I’ve got som spare-time. Enjoy your holidays. Take good care of each other – and remember to send som loving thoughts to those whom doesn’t enjoy Christmas as much as we do.

Now – it’s bedtime – I just might get a couple of hours sleep – maybe a little more – before the little Princess of this house commands us out of bed :o)

All my love .. :o)

HUGS - TORILPIA :o)

More than enough

I’m finding it strange that humans all over the world, can’t manage to agree about plans for saving our environment. Saving our planet. Making sure we have a world where our children and their offsprings can live in the future. But – as in everything else – it’s all about money. The rich never gets enough. And the countries which barely keeps their head over the surface – turnes out to be the loosers – again.

I think those countries – which only “survive” because of their polluting industries – should get subsidy and help from other countries, so that they can reduse their contamination of the environment. But – as it is today – they are punished instead – having to pay large amounts of money – so their economic conditions gets – if possible – even worse. The point is not to make as much money as possible – it is about saving our planet! Unfortunately too many of the rich countries – just doesn’t get the sharing-thing .. When that is said – there are of course countries that pollute a lot – that have the resources to do something about it – but won’t – just because “the others don’t do it …” I guess I’ve heard that saying before – from my kids about stuff I’ve said they’ll have to do ..  

This issue is so important!!! For every single human being – for everything on this planet – our world – mother earth!

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Now – when we are going to celebrate Christmas and there are abundance all over – it may be wise to take a look at oneself. Both when it comes to the environment but also in addition to the powerty we see a lot of places. Can we limit our consumption in any ways? Can we share with those less fortunate than ourselves? Can we do – … something??? Do we need all that food? All those ornaments? All decorations – lights and so on? How much of all the food we buy for Christmas – will actually be eaten? How much do we throw away?

I have to admit that I’m not so clever on this area either. I do throw away food, with a bad feeling though. I do keep too many lamps burning around the clock, using a dryer for my clothes, the dishwasher is running almost every day, computers, tv’s etc is always on stand-by and much more. It’s for sure that I can do a lot to help the environment on my own. Maybe you can do something as well?? Both for environment – and for powerty. Maybe we can celebrate Christmas without the little bad feeling sneaking up on us in such occasions? Wouldn’t it feel good to be without that feeling every now and again – or maybe forever? :o)

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There are lots of thoughts  that goes around in my mind – but I guess it’s time to wish you all a wonderful pre-Christmas-time and tell you to enjoy everyone of them. After all – most of us in the Blog-world is very fortunate and have the opportunity to do just that.

Hugs - Torilpia

100places.com

Not long ago – a Canadian blogger; Andrea (with the blog; Beauty and Old Things) wrote shortly about her feelings for Africa and the feeling of those things she will never see. I quote;

“There are so many things that I will never see and it bothers me a lot. I watched "Out of Africa" (LOVE), a couple of nights ago, and it opened a hole in my soul...The sights, the time period. I may get to Africa but I will never see enough.”

This short paragraph made me think. About Africa, the animals, the threats from the growing deserts, the extermination of threatened animal species and so on. But this is not something that only happens in Africa. Rare animal species are threatened with extermination all over the world. The climate is getting warmer and there is danger of rising sea levels. There are extreme weather conditions, melting of glaciers and sea ice. Destruction of the rain forrest and of important corals in the sea.

A Danish blog that I’ve found resently; Himmel og fjord – mentioned a website called 100places.com. On this site you can read about all of this. This is actually a collection of 100 pictures/videos taken from places all over the world, that have some kind of threat hanging over them. "100 Places to Remember Before they Disappear". You can also read about the things you and I can do to help the earth getting better. So that we are part of the solution. Here is two of their pictures; from Western Hudson Bay, Canada and The Maldives.

So maybe it’s a time for travelling

– se as much as we can –

or maybe just the opposite

– let’s save this planet first?

 

So – go see that website!!

 

All my love – Torilpia

 

Celebrating

My first meeting with this kind of music, was when a co-worker introduced me to Andreas Vollenweider’s Caverna Magica. Since then I’ve grown quite fond of such music and I always find something that fit’s for my state of mind. This is one of his old ones – and definitely worth listening to.

Slowly – the Christmas is getting closer. Not everyone loves this season and everybody doesn’t celebrate Christmas. Then this time might be kind of awkward – I guess. With so many preparing for Christmas – it’s easy to feel left out – unless you have a great support system behind you. Children might feel this in school or among friends – without actually understanding why they don’t celebrate. On the other hand – those who choose not to celebrate – because they just don’t want to – or just don’t care – are a little off the hook – since they don’t have to answere to a higher force or some kind of God. So what is this season all about anyway? Is it a pagan tradition from the earths origin – the really old days? Is it to celebrate the birth of Jesus? Is it a celebration of the sun – starting it’s cycle towards brighter/lighter days?

What’s it to you?

For me it’s mainly about traditions – the opportunities to be with family. Doing all those Christmas-things that the children loves. Making cookies. Christmas decorations. Creating gifts. Wrapping in gifts. Making and writing Christmas-cards and – tags. The candles and the glitter. Lots of Santas and Angels – all over. The peace on Christmas eve – the music. Children singing. As long as my children loves this – I will do it. And I love it as well.

Enjoy your pre-Christmas-days – if you celebrate it or not :o)

All the best – Torilpia!

 

Utopia ..

If every human being really wants to ..

.. we can stop all fighting ..

.. end all powerty ..

.. and ..

.. correct all the “bad” things in our world.

But only if everybody wants to …

.. together we have all that power – an amazing gift!

From Wikipedia;

“Utopia is a name for an ideal community or society, that is taken from Of the Best State of a Republic, and of the New Island Utopia, a book written in 1516 by Sir Thomas More describing a fictional island in the Atlantic Ocean, possessing a seemingly perfect socio-politico-legal system. The term has been used to describe both intentional communities that attempted to create an ideal society, and fictional societies portrayed in literature. "Utopia" is sometimes used pejoratively, in reference to an unrealistic ideal that is impossible to achieve.”

 

All my love – Torilpia!

 

Regrets ..

There are things I regret doing .. and there are things I regret NOT doing.  I guess both ways it’s unpleasant to think about later on. Most of the time I’ve tried to make use of the opportunities I’ve stumbled across – but things aren’t always as simple as they first appear to be. When it comes to what I do for others, I have done things I regret – but there are more things that I regret NOT doing. This is something I need to work on.

Today – on our way into the nearest city (Trondheim) – we did see this old man slip and fall onto the icy road leading up to his house. He struggled to get up – but we didn’t see if he made it, because we passed his house so fast. I couldn’t let go of the scene – and made my father turn around and go back to see if he was ok. Luckily he was gone – so he must have made it back inside. Hopefully without much damage. And I finally could let go. We did the right thing about it – even if it turned out it wasn’t necessary to go back.

Later – downtown – I passed this young man selling books, outside a shop I went into. He wasn’t able to talk, but tried to communicate anyway. These books/magazines gives the salespersons 50% of the income and it’s basically alcoholics, drug-addicts and so on, whom are selling them. After passing I kept thinking about this and I really think it’s a good concept. I usually buy these kinds of magazines, but have never bought books. People selling these books are amazing, and so eager to get money in other ways than by criminal actions. When I came outside – I went up to him – giving him the money and got myself a copy of the book and a beautiful, greatful smile. It turnes out the book is full of interesting stuff – and a lot of it. Guess I have something to read for a long time :o)

AND not to forget – I feel like I’ve done very good today!

It doesn’t have to be that big self-uplifting thing – but small things like I’ve told you about here – that makes a difference. To others and especially for one self. What have you done lately – that made you feel great – that made you feel that you made a difference to others? These small things today – made it for me. And it wasn’t hard – at all!!

Have a wonderful evening, night and day – all the best – Torilpia :o)

 

The Rose

Many years ago – I watched Bette Midler in the movie The Rose. The film touched me deeply. It’s about a young female singer (Mary Rose Foster – The Rose) and is more or less based on Janis Joplins life. This song is taken from that movie – and even if this youtube-post is not so good – I still get the same feeling – as I did first time I watched the movie and heard this song. I still feel like crying.

It also makes me think about all the wonderfull people – that are no longer with us. Singers, writers, actors and in other ways - loved ones. I just have to play it one more time – before I wipe my tears.

All my love – to my readers and to all of those wonderful people that makes us feel good by sharing music, words and actions with the rest of us.

Hugs .. Torilpia!

 

Jesus – The King

My four-year-old daughter was in church today. When she came home – I asked her about the church-visit.

I: Did you sing Christmas-carols in the church?

My daughter: No, we sang Jesus-songs!

I: Ok, so now you know who Jesus was?

My daughter: Yes, and he wore a white dress. And he is some kind of king – up in a cloud somewhere. But he doesn’t wear a crown – like the real kings do ….

A little bit cute though :o)

It makes me think about something I read in the local newspaper yesterday. An American woman found a print on her iron – not long ago. She’s convinced that it’s Jesus on that print. And that he sent her a sign – that everything was going to be fine. Struggling at work and in the middle of a divorce – she really needed something good in her life.

So what do you think? Does it look like Jesus? Do you think it’s a sign from Jesus (or God)? Does it actually matter if it was or not? I mean – if it made her feel better, and it gave her some faith – who are we to judge about this? Nobody will ever know – until they are dead – or - maybe not, even then.

Some say Jesus and God exists – others say they don’t. But if we think about it – does anybody really know? There are people who say they’ve talked to God or seen Jesus. But they can’t prove it to us – in a way that shows us it’s true. We can choose to believe. And on what grounds? Only their way of letting us know. Their way of expressing themselves. And most likely their charisma. I do believe in Neale Donald Walsch – I really do – the more I read – the more I believe.

I think the print looks like Jesus – but as others have expressed – it also looks a little like Mona Lisa .. :o) But as humans we have an ability to see “faces” in everything, and everywhere. I used to have nightmares because of the curtains I had on my room as a child .. they were full of faces .. :o)

THANK YOU FOR READING THIS POST!

Wish you all a wonderful day, evening, night – God bless :o)

Torilpia

The pictures in this post is Googled.

A Wonderful World

I’m getting a little melancholic whenever I hear this song. Wonderful melody, beautiful words.

But in a way I feel that these days are over. The world doesn’t seem so wonderful anymore. Not if we take a look on everything that’s going on. People killing others – child abuse – rape  – stealing – cheating. Killing of the rainforrest – the ozon hole – extermination of rear animals,  insects and plants. Lack of drinking water and food. The financial crisis.  And this is just the tip of the iceberg. We all need to do whatever we can to help the environment, people in need and more. If you believe in the power of thinking – why don’t we all start thinking the same? Why don’t we all pull in the same direction? But I guess it’s an illution. This – and everything else – is all about money. In Neale Donald Walsh’s first book Conversations with God; he mention something about this. If nobody is sick – the doctors and many more are without work. These relations you’ll find in most professions – all over the world. It’s all about money.

Pictures like this makes me wonder about 2012 .. will it happen .. or will something happen .. if it does – what can we expect? I don’t want to think about this so much .. but every now and then these thoughts come sneaking into my mind – and my heart beats just a little bit faster ..

We’ll just have to wait and see!

Meanwhile I will start looking for all those good things in life. For despite all the above – there are a lot of things to be greatful for. A lot of wonderful things. A lot of love.

Today is a wonderful day – for me – and I’ll do my best to keep it that way.

This morning’s heaven;

Have a wonderful day – all my love!!

 

Toril

Livia

My four-year-old daughter has, as long as I can remember (after she started talking properly – before the age of two) been talking about a place called; LIVIA.

Livia was where she had her house, her children (all eight of them), a father for the children and lots of other stuff and people. She has told us the names of these children (and remembered them at all times), the name of the first father and the second father. (The first one died for a reason I can’t remember right now.) She told us how things looked like and more. Her house was purple inside and white outside.

Whenever something happened in this life – she came up with a similar story from Livia. For a period of time – it was a little too much. But we didn’t say that she couldn’t talk about it. Then it was nothing – for a long time. Now – suddenly she began to talk about it again.

However – a couple of nights ago – she told me her house got caught in a volcano-burst and lava burnt all of it. All the children died. She said it like it was the most natural thing in the world.

I asked her if she didn’t have to go to Livia anymore – now that her kids were dead. She said; No – but she might would like to have new kids – when she grew up. We concluded that it was a bit tiring to travel between two homes like that and tend to eight children and a husband – when you’re just four years old :o)

I found this picture by searching for Livia – it’s on a page called Livia Corona – they are/have been building two million homes in Mexico .. do you see the little white house? – and in the back the volcano???? :o) Just kidding :o)

Livia was also the name of one of the most powerful women in the Roman Empire. Married to Emperor Augustus. She was later called Julia Augusta.

It’s kind of fun she came up with such a name all by herself – at the age of two (or it may have been earlier).

Have a nice weekend – all of you :o)

I just found this fantastic blog

For the ones who would like a shirt/t-shirt slightly different – visit this blog;

http://bubbleshandmade.blogspot.com/

The designer is  Adina Maiorescu  – and I fell in love with the shirts at once :o)

This yin-yang shirt is my favorite – I think ..

.. or ..

maybe this black one – with words worth remembering;

Life is too short

to wake up with regrets.

Love the people who treat you right &

forget the ones who don’t!

Believe that everything happens for a reason.

If you get a chance – take it

If it changes your life – let it

Nobody said life would be easy

they just promised

it would be worth it.

So cute – just gotta love it :o)

All the pictures are taken from bubbles blog!

Scary stuff

Where I live – it’s kind of dark in the evenings this time of the year. There is no street lights and very little light from the houses along our road. I’m a bit of a sissy and don’t like to go outside when it’s dark.

And the reason why I’m so scared of this is a creature called MOOSE. Everyone keeps telling me that it’s not out walking after the dark – but still – I don’t like to go outside in the dark.

Photo; Håkon Røvang, Nittedal, Norway

Thursday – in the middle of the day – in broad daylight – there is a visitor coming up the driveway and into my yard. It’s a young moose. It stops in front of the house – a perfect position for a photo. I was sitting in front of the window – with my camera on the table next to me. I’ve just copied pictures from the camera into my laptop. I grabbed the camera – ready to shoot. But nothing happens. The battery in the camera was suddenly empty ….. I felt like screaming .. How often does this happen – that a moose is standing right outside my livingroom window?????

I’m running for my mobile phone – switcing on it’s camera – but the moose was moving. I went into my daughters room, which has a window in the direction the moose was heading. I see the moose, I push the mobile camera button – hoping to at least get a picture showing how close the moose was to my house. The camera locks a picture – but that is not the actual picture that is taken. Why do these kind of cameras do that – it fools me every single time. The picture I ended up with – has a brown-grey shadow behind the trees in the woods at the back of my garden. It sure doesn’t look like a moose. I got sooooo mad!!!!! Stupid - stupid camera ….

Back into the living room – my four-year-old ask me this; Why didn’t you use the little grey camera? ………….. I’ve forgotten my old Canon Ixus camera … :o(   And for once – it’s battery was full…………………….. How is it possible to ruin a chance like this .. ???

Anyway – it’s monday – it’s the beginning of a new week – with lots of new opportunities. I’m hoping for good health and great weather. Maybe even the moose comes back??? I wish .. :o)

Have a wonderful week!!!  Lots of love!!

Patch-work heaven

I had to take a photo of the sky today.

A great patch-work of clouds.

Amazing – in my opinion :o)

All my love!!

The Fool

When I started making posts about my Tarot-cards – I started with The Magician (the second card) – wich actually has the number 1 (one) in the Major Arcana of Tarot. I should have started with The Fool  wich has number 0 (zero) – and is the first card in the deck. As you might know – the Tarot deck is split into The Major Arcana and The Minor Arcana. The Major Arcana includes 22 special-cards – like The Magician and The Fool. The Minor Arcana is split in four “elements” (kind of like a normal card deck), wich is Wands, Cups, Swords and Pentacles. Each one of this four “elements” contains the numbers from 1 (ace) – 10 in addition to four Court cards; King, Queen, Knight and Page.

Since The Fool is the first card in The Major Arcana – it’s natural to start with this card in a series of posts about the Tarot cards. So here we go! The Fool comes first – and his position in the card deck – gives us a sign of the cards meaning.

The Fool seems a little careless in a childish way. He’s playful, filled with wonder and curiosity. Dancing and juggling in the beginning of his journey. He’s innocent, filled with optimism and joy. He symbolize the start of a new process, a new choice. The options are many and open. Take a chance and not be afraid of what others think about it.

But don’t be reckless. In spite of the dancing and juggling – The Fool seems to be in control.

This card may symbolize the person you read or someone in this persons life (past, present or future). A person with The Fools features. Or it may symbolize a particular situation in this persons life. The cards next to The Fool or it’s placement – in the card-spread - will give you more information about who or what this is all about.

The Fool may be read in different ways – but it’s a positive card - if one is aware of carelessness and other less positive behaviours.

If YOU have something to add to this post, if something strikes you as odd or feels wrong – please leave a comment under this post. Remember – I’m still pretty new to Tarot and I still use the Tarot-books a lot :o)

Wish you a wonderful evening  - all my best!!

BTW; You can read the post about The Magician – here!

Cloud-factories

Childrens way of thinking and their logic – never stops to amaze me.

My youngest daughter spoke at an early age – having real long conversations before she became two years old. She had full control of the words and their meaning. When she stumbled across new and difficult words – she still managed to use them correctly. Our family was really impressed. She wasn’t very old when this episode took place. She had figured out – that the floor was on the groud – and the ceiling was above us. In a way she concluded that it was the same way outside.

This was a sunny day – but with some clouds in the sky. Standing outside on the veranda, she was studying the clouds for a while before she asked me this;

- Why is there cotton on the ceiling?

It does look a little like cotton – doesn’t it :o)

Now she has figured out this “sky – clouds – stuff”  - well .. almost :o) But then again – she is as a fact - FOUR years “BIG/OLD” :o) Important to remember the age at this time .. she sais .. :o)

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On a drive to our nearest city – a couple of weeks ago – she became very fascinated of some factory-pipes, with smoke coming out of them.

She concluded that this was “cloud-factories”. Since they were making clouds – of course :o) 

Her grandfather bragged about her logic for a while – and she then replied;

- Yes, I’m clever and knows a lot of stuff! 

Well – who am I to argue about that?? :o)

Her self-confidence is the best – that’s for sure.

Anyway – the cloud-factories are working a little to hard these days – but I guess it’s normal for this time of the year. Have a nice week.

Lots of love!!

The last two pictures are Googled!

Coming Back by Raymond Moody

Raymond Moody was - and still is, a sceptic – like me. However I think I’m convinced of the fact that we have lived before. I believe in reincarnation and a life both before and after life. I even believe there is a life between lives. When he first wrote the book Life after life – a book about near death experiences – he received a lot of letters from readers all over. In between all these letters/stories he found information about people remembering their previous lives as well. He decided that he had to look into the matter and even went for a regression himself.

He found NINE previous lives.

The book Coming Back – is written at the end of the eighties and a lot has happend in the world since that time. We are much more open about this subject now, a lot of books are written and a lot of people have come forward telling their stories. But even if this book is a bit old – I found it interesting. He wrote about stuff I never heard about before. He said something about people who believe and those who disbelieve – they are actually “in the same boat”. Previous lives are impossible to prove or contradict. I guess it’s up to each and everyone of us – if we believe or disbelieve. Raymond Moody still write books, is available for personal consultations, holds lectures/workshops and participate in a numerous radio- and tv-shows – including Oprah :o)  

A theraphist, believing in reincarnation – described life in this way; 

It feels like waiting in line for a ride in a roller-coaster. They say that when a man is in line for a ticket, something inside of him knows that when he sits with his head down - in really high speed, he actually don’t want to be there. But still he buy’s his ticket, the excitement is unavoidable.

The fact that we will be inflicted by various diseases and be exposed of disasters, is not important compeared to the fact that we will learn a lot about ourselves spiritually – as we time after time line up for a ride in The Roller-coaster of Life. 

Raymond Moody uses words like cryptomnesia and xenoglossy as alternative causes for old memories and pictures coming up. He also touches the subject of hypnagogic state.

Kryptomnesia is described as episodes when memories/pictures hidden deep inside are coming up again – in a way as if they are new. Most likely in creative situations. Among others, Helen Keller once got fooled by a situation like this, writing the story The Frost King. As it turned out, the story was a “copy” of The Frost Fairies – written by another author 29 years earlier. Since Helen Keller was both blind and deaf – she had to totally depend on others for knowledge and information. She had no conscious memories about this story and was stunned. It turned out that a friend of her, “read” her the story some years before she wrote The Frost King. 

Xenoglossy happens when a client starts to talk a foreign language during regression. Sometimes the therapists knows the language, other times they don’t. Those who believe in reincarnation may think the client talk in a “lost” or “dead” language. Why they do this is unknown. Maybe the client recently overheard the language on the bus or on the radio or someplace else. The believers think it is a sign of previous lives.

Hypnagogic state is the state we are in, between beeing fully awake and beeing asleep. Not sleeping – not awake. During a hypnotic regression – one easily gets into a hypnagogic state and we gets up very colorful and complicated pictures. The difference from dreams is that we don’t participate, but are wathing it all from the sideline and still know where we actually are. In dreams we are a part of the action.   

Then we are left with some new information, telling us what’s NOT regressions to previous lives. But with all the other cases – well – who knows??

An intriguing and interesting book – no matter what wiew you have in this situation. I would like to believe that we live several lives – and don’t just turn off the switch when we die. It’s a really comforting thought that we can be reunited with our loved ones on the other side.

All my love!!

Children

.. say the sweetest things.

BUT – when my four-year old told me she was looking forward to die – my heart almost stopped.

I got a grip of myself and asked her; Why?

She looked at me – as if I was a bit stupid or something and said; Because - then I will become an angel!

And I am sure she will!!!

The Magician

In Tarot – we have this card called; The Magician. At the forum Magicgate – they asked for the users interpretation of this card. I am using The Gilded Tarot deck and The Magician is different from the one they are showing in the forum.

But I love my tarot deck.

This is “The Magician”. 

He looks strong and wise. In full control of the four elements; wands, cups, swords and pentacles. He knows how to use them – and how powerful they are. So for me “The Magician” represent knowledge, wisdom and full control of will and elements. There is a small warning about this card however;  one need to be aware of negative manipulation and control as a result of “the power”.

Do you have a tarot deck?

Which one?

Do you use it regularly for information or just for fun?

I’d love to hear about it. Please leave a comment.

HALLOWEEN

In the shops these days - there are Halloween stuff all over. I wasn’t sure about what date it was – but googled it and found that it was due on 31. oktober. I’m not a great fan of this event – but it seems like the kids love it. However – it doesn’t have that long of a tradition here in Norway, but we are slowly catching up.

I’ve already bought some candy and other stuff – but I guess we need a lot more … :o)

Hopefully it will be a nice evening after all.

Do you “celebrate” Halloween?

What’s the most important thing about that evening? Hints or tips?

All the best .. HUGS!!

I just can’t help myself ..

.. but sometimes I do weird things. And I mean weird.

I do have a self-destructing aspect in my personality. Unfortunately.

Let’s say I want to loose some weight. I decide that TODAY is the first day on my new diet. And what happens? After a couple of hours – my body, or more correctly – my head - craves for something good. Cake – icecream or just sugar. Or maybe melted cheese … or pizza … or … How long does it take before I’m off my diet???

 

Sometimes when I’m trying to save up some money – that’s the times when I desperately need to buy this or that. It’s like I have to do the opposite of what I’m actually is going to. It gets me so frustrated.

There are som web-pages or blogs that I just need to visit as often as I can. Some of them because they are interesting, others because they are useful or just fun. But then there is some pages I just have to visit because they really annoyes me. People writing the most stupid things. I just can’t help myself – I have to comment or ask questions about what they actually mean with it all. This makes me feel “not so nice”. But then again – it might make the readers AND the writers think a little bit further – realizing what’s been written - is just plain stupid.

I’ve always thought that if one doesn’t have anything nice to say – then just don’t say anything. I would certainly not tell any lies – just to keep a friendly tone. I’m done with that. BUT – when I ask my questions or come with my comments – I try not to be spiteful or make others feel bad.

In blogs there are often written comments that are not so nice – I have to say that I am not one of them – but if I read something I think is wrong or just plain stupid – I ask questions or write comments just to put a finger on the issue. That must be called constuctive criticism – or what?

Now – you might think this is a plain stupid post – but then you are free to ask me questions or leave a comment - so that I understand what I could have done different to make my point shine through. You know – when bad comments are given with a good attention – they’re not so bad after all. It’s like this small pond (see photo above) that the rain makes in my driveway – then the rain is not so bad after all :o)

Have a be-nice day :o)

 

The Love of my life – My children

In my 41 year long life – I’ve met a lot of different men. But never completely fallen in love. I thought I was – or at least I tried and WANTED to be in love. But as the time passed on – I realized that I wasn’t. The closest I’ve been – must have been when I was a teenager – 14 years old. I fell for this beautiful young man – almost 18. I always blushed when I met him. And God forbid if he actually talked to me. But the magic happened when he one evening came up to me and asked me to go for a walk in the moonshine. He finally discovered ME. However – like young love tend to do – it lasted only for a few months. He then moved on – and started dating a friend of mine. That hurt – a lot!! And I was really surprised about it ending.

Like in this quote by Benjamin Disraeli;

- The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can ever end.

But – IT DID! 

For almost 18 years ago – when I got pregnant with my oldest daugther – things started to  happen. And for about 17 years ago – someone stole my heart – totally. My child – my first little princess. For 14 years ago – carrying my second daughter – I was wondering how it would be possible to have room in my heart for another child. I was kind of worry too. But when I held her in my arms for the first time – my heart expanded – there was just as much love for a second child. I then had two beautiful princesses. I was really blessed.

Of course – there was a lot of work, worrying and responsibilities – and I really struggled in periods of their younger years. But there was a lot of love – and that was the most important thing of all. I decided that I shouldn’t have any more children. It would be too difficult to handle.

But in one way or another – I changed my mind. Four years ago – when my third daughter was born – my heart grew even more. I started to think of my heart as a gladiolus (flower) – growing one flower at the time – one for each of my children. Every single one special – every single one beautiful – and together – PERFECT!

(Photo: Google/Mestergrønn)

I would like to end this post with a story about my four-year-old daughter. She has been home from kindergarden today because of a sore throat.

She was watching TV when I came and gave her a cup of warm tea, with milk and sugar. And a cheese sandwich (that she wouldn’t eat of course). She took the cup – looked up at me – smiled and said; “You are so kind mammy!”

No wonder my heart melted :o)

No wonder my kids are THE LOVE OF MY LIFE :o)

Seasons change

The fall is cathing up with us here in the middle of Norway – and really fast now. The leaves are turning yellow and orange, red and brown. The wind blows the leaves off the trees – like a blizzard – only with leaves instead of snow.

But at least we can still find some berries here and there.

I’m  so lucky to have some of them in my garden. In no time I can pick berries for desserts or cakes or just to put in my freezer for later use.

I’m not looking forward to the winter this year. Somehow I feel that I haven’t had any summer. The switch came to sudden for me, since I was away for almost a month at this time.

On the other hand – we’ve had a couple of nice days now. Warm and sunny.

But still – the colors tell a different story – the summer is gone.

Hopefully we still have to wait for the snow to come, for many weeks.

The best thing about this “dark season” – is that we now can light a lot of candles inside – and outside. This gives me a good feeling – always.

The fireplace is a great thing to have these days.

I’m actually using it to burn old jounals today. Since I’m in a process of eliminating old memories and feelings that are holding me back. As a symbol of this process I burn all of my old jounals. The memories that are important are already placed in my mind and the feelings that are important are in my heart. The rest is burning – disappearing. A lot of pain, disappointments, hurt feelings and more. Old letters from former lovers or penpals that disappeared suddenly. Everything – gone! It’s a bit difficult – but still I’m happy to do it. This is not something I want my children to read – or anyone else for that matter. I was a real handful – desperately searching for love and relationships. I felt so alone. It’s so obvious now. Finally!!!

Iwish that I’ve seen it earlier. But still – I’m glad I see it today.

Wish you all the best – wherever you are – and whatever season you are moving into.